Wrapped in a Blanket

My heart has ached for weeks. No news has turned into bad news. Now, I face the real possibility of losing my mother in the near future. I’m not sure my siblings could tell how anguished I was on the phone or if my professionalism simply hid it. But inside, I’m tearing apart. I want her to be healed but not if it comes with suffering. My prayer has simply become for God to do His will… expediently.

We were not actually supposed to be at church early this morning. Angela just had cochlear implant surgery three days ago. It was the grace of God and the Holy Spirit she felt like getting out of the house. But Angela, Jonathan, and I were in the sanctuary when I heard the worship team practicing “Who Would Have Dreamed.”

It stuck with me. I’m not sure why, but I feel a peaceful vulnerability when I hear it, despite it being a six-year-old song. Maybe it is because its words reflect the vulnerability God took on and the promise it foretold.

The creator of the universe could be held in the hands of His creation. God subjected Himself to the death we dread because it was the only way to defeat it. It also reminds me to be at peace for nothing is a surprise to Yahweh.

He knew what I needed and made sure I was there to get it.

I searched the internet for a version to wrap up in like a blanket as I come to terms with where my life is. When all was said and done, it was this version I liked the most. Performed on December 8, 2019, at First Baptist Church in Prattville, Alabama, the simple duet of two exceptionally talented people with just a simple guitar is what my spirit needed.

Who Would Have Dreamed – Performed by Meagan Anderson (ft. Carter Reeves).

On a starlit hillside, shepherds watched their sheep
Slowly, David’s city drifted off to sleep
But to this little town of no great renown
The Lord had a promise to keep

Prophets had foretold it, a mighty King would come
Long awaited Ruler, God’s Anointed One
But the Sovereign of all looked helpless and small
As God gave the world His own Son

And who would have dreamed or ever foreseen
That we could hold God in our hands?
The Giver of Life is born in the night
Revealing God’s glorious plan

To save the world

Wondrous gift of heaven: the Father sends the Son
Planned from time eternal, moved by holy love
He will carry our curse and death He’ll reverse
So we can be daughters and sons

And who would have dreamed or ever foreseen
That we could hold God in our hands?
The Giver of Life is born in the night
Revealing God’s glorious plan

And who would have dreamed or ever foreseen
That we could hold God in our hands?
The Giver of Life is born in the night
Revealing God’s glorious plan

To save the world

To save the world

“Who Would Have Dreamed” Words by Jason Hansen and Bob Kauflin